I think you need to reinvent yourself and find a new purpose.
I have been out since 83 but I still pray.
I pray the Lords prayer.
Maybe its just something I do an old habit.
But I am still alive and thankful and functioning.
You ask where do you go now? Well go where your heart leads you. Enjoy the ride. Look under rocks, explore. Give your life meaning and purpose.
In this life your life is what you make it. If your life is not that great than make it better.
If you think your life is not that great that sound like you are depressed and if you are depressed the cure for depression is to get up and get moving.
You become what you think about. If you think you are poor you become poor. If you think you are rich you become rich. If you think you are happy you act and become happy. If you think you are sad you act and become sad.
That is the greatest secret of life.